Weekday Devotionals

Devotional by Samantha Mosca

The unfolding of your (glorious) words give light:
Their unfolding gives understanding to the simple (childlike) Psalm 119:130 AMP

Even when I am angry at God

This December has been unlike any I can recall in my 40-ish years on this earth. It’s been full of, far too many, moments of anger. Anger at things that were so far out of my control, I just wanted to shut down. I wanted to run away.
Find the largest rock I could and crawl all the way under. Letting no light in, just sinking into the darkness.
I’ve had this thought in my mind thru it all, “Even when I’m angry at God”…..
I have felt His prompting to finish that thought every moment that anger crept in.
“Even when I’m angry at God”…..
What comes after those words? What thoughts? What actions?

Now faith is the assurance (confirmation) of things hoped for (divinely guaranteed), and the evidence of things not seen (the conviction of their reality—faith comprehends as fact what cannot be experienced by the physical senses). Hebrews 11:1 AMP

Each time anger would creep in, I would have to be intentional to find a way out. It would be so easy to just sit in that emotion. Almost comfortable. But I know a better way these days. I know God has placed amazing people in my life to move the rock out of the way and let all the light in leaving no darkness in its stead. I know God has given me His words to provide comfort in the most devastating times anyone can, and will, face in their lives. I know it was no coincidence that these trials came specifically at this time of the year, a time that is supposed to be all about Joy and celebration. I know it was meant to ‘try’ and cause a rift in a relationship that has saved me time and time again, mostly from myself.
But, with each trial, with each wave of anger at the circumstances, God impressed that thought upon me, “Even when Im angry at God”…..
Christmas has come and gone, baby Jesus and all His little, tiny fingers and toes has arrived and Blessed us in this world with His mighty presence.

A promise has been sent from God.

but He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you (My lovingkindness and My mercy are more than enough—always available—regardless of the situation); for (My) power is being perfected (and is completed and shows itself most effectively) in (your) weakness.” Therefore, I will all the more gladly boast in my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ (may completely enfold me and) may dwell in me.
2 Corinthians 12:9 AMP

The trials will keep coming. On holidays and on average days. The emotions do not go away but I have a mighty weapon that always gets me thru…….

Even when I am angry at God, He never gives up on me.

- Samantha




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